I am sitting here feeling normal for the first time in so long that I can't remember. When you hurt all over your body and moving makes it worse.
I hope that the medicine keeps working.
Painting class today, so looking forward to it.

Today I woke up and 90% free of pain. I really did not think the medicine would work again but it did, even having one day pain free is a gift. The pain is like nothing I can explain

There is a program on the animal channel called Monsters inside me,
its fascinating on Wednesday night I just watched the first one and its
very informative. You might want to tivo it because it is a series.

If worms and things just gross you out skip it.

I went to the Dr's my appointment was 9:45 I finally saw her at 10:30 She had not gone over the labs, did not remember why I was there. Dr see so many people now days that they do no follow up they just have no time. I don't think I would want to be a Dr now.

The pain I have been having finally knocked me to my knees, fibro is the
worst thing in the world. The only medicine she could put me on was Cymbalta I have taken it and it stopped working, so I tried it last night and oh my God the pain just went away. Its been so bad I have been sleeping with my fist clenched and pain pills don't help well at least the ones she is willing to give me.

Why do Dr's not give you pain pills so you can funtion even if you become addicted to them at least you have some quality of life. Its not like I'm going to go out and live on the street and become a drug dealer. I am in such pain that the thought of getting up and walking to the kitchen is to much, eating is a chore, it makes my breathing ten time worse.

I know this is a rant, sorry but the good news is the pills are working.

Carl calls every day and he is having a wonderful time, says he saw seanery that took his breath away, the most beautiful of any he has ever saw on his bike.

So I got my ear drops and by noon today they made me so sick I had to come home from class, sick to my stomach and the shakes.

Really losy day.

Whats with Dr that see you then go out of town and dont get back to you about your test's. I finally have heard about my stomach "Im fine" Jakes prescription is working. Been waiting for a week for a different ear medication seeing as the one she prescribed me is $276. A nice woman at walgreens said that triple A will pay 76.00 of it I did not know that triple A did that. She is e mailing and faxing seeing if there is another medication that would work as well and not as costly. Sheesh.
Jake get some L Ornithine it really helps will make you sleep better also.

This is Tyler, he is just so cute when he smiles. I could just hug him to pieces.
OK I have a rant, here goes. Noise this world is just getting way to noisy.
When you go to the store they now have monitors yelling at you that you should eat this cook that, then if you go put gas in your car the same thing as soon as you put the hose in the tank the monitor starts up telling you all these things you need to do or the news.
It reminds me of Blade Runner we just don't have the rain all the time but its coming.
I remember when your neighbors cut the grass and it was a semi quiet operation, a little clacking or whirring but that was all. NOW when they cut the grass next door one guy uses the blower, another use's the mower,another is using a chain saw on the bush's you end up in a storm of noise.
Others this week where the tree trimers with there wood chipper and chain saws, trash collectors who drive up and down this street twenty time in the whole day because I am a main street.
This world is so loud that I wonder how every one can hear them selfs think, or maybe thats the trick if you can't hear your self think then you dont pay attention to your life ebbing away.
I am ready to go join the Buddest's in Northen California just for some peace and introspection.

My grandson Jake came over and brought me all kinds of treats and some kick ass probiotics, I have taken two bottles, there small and the pain in my stomach has pretty much gone away. Now I can say my grandson the Dr. It really helped me.

I can't wait to start my class's I am so bored this last month. I am not a self starter that's for sure. I might paint today if I can get my self going.

what's with Dr's you go and tell them that you feel really losy they send you out for test's and then you call to make afollow up appointment and well they can't see you for three weeks. You could die before getting there attention. I'm glad I have Dr Jake.